Today is my last day of babysitting with this precious baby. I've been here every day for 2 1/2 months so you can imagine how hard it will be to leave knowing I won't see him but once a month or so. If I'm lucky. Every morning when I get to my son and daughter-in-law's house the two girls come running yelling "Grandma's here" and give me a hug. Then this one wiggles from head to toe and lifts his arms. Sigh.
Now don't get me wrong. I'm ready to go home. Back to my own little nest, my own bed, my own stuff. It's amazing how much you miss your stuff! When you're away for a while you appreciate it all the more.
But I'm thinking today about beginnings and endings. What a precious gift both are. Remember the excitement you felt at the beginning of your relationship with your husband? With each child or grandchild? Remember the thrill of a new job or a new church? My goodness, even the excitement of a new car or a new house can make our hearts beat extra fast. Beginnings are opportunities...times when we can become who we want to be, savor the unknown and embrace the things we haven't enjoyed before. But endings are just as sweet if more poignant. Graduations from kindergarten, grammar school, high school, college are all endings that make our hearts swell and, sometimes, our eyes leak tears of joy. Friends moving away tug at our heartstrings. Leaving the first home we shared with our husbands, going to a larger house to gain bedrooms for the coming children, can cause us to stop in our tracks and relive the early moments of love. But truly these aren't really endings; they're just bridges to a new path. This is very likely my last grandchild. The next baby born in our family will be a great-grandchild (no not yet!) That will be a whole new beginning for me and one that I never dreamed about since I never thought I'd be that old. :) But oh what fun that will be! Today I'm crossing a bridge from this season of my life to another season. Looking back I can't possibly choose which was my favorite season but I suspect it will be the next one coming.